summer is almost over.

that means school, new teachers that hate me, homework, new school, new people, and wost of all...drama.

last year i made a promise to my self that i wouldnt get stuck into the social drama and i was kinda anti-social. i stayed home from parties or the movies to just sit at home and not care about the world outside. i also promised myself that i wouldnt get involved with a boyfriend. i know what your thinking.... why in the world would she do that, right? but it really helped me not to get distracted from my school work or church. i am now going into the 11th grade. wow, only 2 more years to make up my mind on "what i wanted to be when i grew up."  well, i have no idea besides me wanting to be an actress(which will never come true because i live in Arkansa). even tho i am taking some of the most easiest classes, i am going to give it my all. again i am going to promise my self the same things, not dating and being part of the drama. if i was to be put into a "clique", i would be in the Chirstian/Rich/Pretty group(even if i am not rich, i still hang out with the rich girls).

this year i am going to change the way i look at life.

this summer i went to camp, and some camps have tribal competition. well, i hated tribal competition more then you could ever imagine. i was not athletic, i hated to run, and my coaches were mean. well, on the 2nd day of losing and being yelled at by my coaches, i broke down and started to cry because i was so frustrated that i couldnt stick up for my self. that day changed my look on things for the rest of the summer. one out of four of my coached was also my tennis coach. that day she took me aside and we talked about tribal comp. and how i felt about things. she told me that when she was doing this for the first time she hated it as much as i did. she also told me that after one day she just prayed to God and she just told herself that she was not doing this for the caddo tripe, she was doing this for God. After that, i gave it all i had and won it all for God. at the end of the camp, all the coaches of the teams gave out an award for the best sport, most enthusiastic, and just over all player on the team.and to my surprise(and my famies') i got that award and it made my summer. i was so happy. i showed everyone i could do it if i tryed.

this year i am going to do my best and finish the year happy.

hey yall

New Orleans was amazing. i met this guy.... who is amazingly funny and like reminds me of me. ... lol yeah .... and i hope to see him when our church goes back down there in Augest(sp). he is so cool. there is just something about him... i just cant put my finger on it. zach thinks i like him...but he has a girl friend so ...yeah ... well, i am going to camp next week and i want to stay home. !!!! well, COMMENT COMMENT COMMENT COMMENT  i only got 1 last time... losers...